Lean on Me is on TV right now. Such a good movie. Like Amadeus. Totally different, but yeah. I could watch Amadeus right now. Over and over again.
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You know what should be invented within the next 10 years? A device that has a radar, which would be able to detect when a person is being obscenely overbearing – and upon finding these obscene levels of overbearingness, releases some sort of miniature punishment to discipline the offender at hand, maybe a small jet of steaming water, or a large glove set to slap a cheek.
I really need one of these, primarily to use it against me. I can’t help but feel, during different social situations, that I’m being incredibly annoying and/or idiotic, and people around me are only putting up with me out of pity or perhaps amusement.
Why do I obsessively take note of what occurs between myself and other people, in real time, and reflect upon these interactions over and over again while bashing my head against a wall? I shouldn’t be so critical of myself. This is something I have to work through. Nothing new.
Really, just a little pinch and I’ll bite my tongue. I’ll change the subject. I’ll go into the other room.
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Time to forget and move into the week to come.
