WHAT A DAY!
First day of class = CRAAAAZY. I’m kinda exhausted from today, but I know I have to blog about it.
Look at me being all anime-ey! A friend of mine who speaks Japanese is crashing in my room tonight. She’s SUPER AWESOME!
GODDAMMIT, ERIC WHY ARE YOU GOOD AT LEDES/INTROS!? I realized this weekend that I suck as a funny writer. I might be amusing in person, but not on paper. I’m good at being sorta straightforward though. Maybe?
And that’s that!
More substantial post coming someday.
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I will talk about something substantial.
Or yet…
If this isn't a lazy doodle, then I don't know what is...
Politics = complicated, don’tchaknow.
Something cuter: For some reason or another, I’ve been thinking about the movie Wall*E. It’s such a cute movie. The soundtrack has been keeping me calm, even though I’ve had to go to YouTube and listen to my favorite track ever:
Sigh… so amazing. Sometimes I almost find myself tearing up, because that scene was so beautiful. I remember almost crying the first time I saw it. Damn you, Pixar, making me turn to mush.
I wish I could soar through space with a fire extinguisher.
I wouldn’t like to be there alone, though.
Dancing: n. A series of movements involving two partners, where speed and rhythm match harmoniously with music.
Stupid Pixar.
Stupid Thomas Newman.
This is what happens when you can’t sleep and you think about a sappy movie – but I guess you can say I’ve finally found something to calm me down that doesn’t involve popping a pill.
I always liked the stars. Ever since I can remember I was in love with constellations and galaxies and my local planetarium. I loved the stars, whether they were real in the sky or manufactured by a machine in a museum. I was a nerdy kid.
Still am.
If only I didn’t need oxygen – I’d be up in space within a milisecond.
How I would look if I were (a) mangafied and/or (b) absolutely stunningly gorgeous
Reminds me a little bit of the Korean CandyBar doll maker with which I used to be obsessed.
The countdown has finally begun (for me) before school officially starts on Monday. I’m honestly a little terrified but I know I can handle the work that’ll come ahead. I now have to “Zen” myself to focus on what’s coming up very shortly.
This weekend I’ll be checking in to my dormitory for the first time ever. Thrilled – yet nervous. I’m actually going to be on my own for the first time, for a seriously extended period of time. I cannot wait – I’m sick of the comfort here in my house (grandmother doing my laundry, grandmother picking up my room, grandmother doing… everything). It’s going to be strange not having my mother around to talk to, even though we get into petty arguments frequently. And my brother, he’s heading into his junior year, which is going to be tough for him, and I need to help him out… but I’ll figure out something. Heh, he woke me up at around 5:30 today to help him with his homework. Oh, Daniel…
I believe we finished production of our first issue of the school paper yesterday. I was at the office working on my section since around 11 or 12, I can’t remember, after getting a few hours of sleep. I love my section, which is Opinion; it’s a very important one and I want to do my best in making it better than last year’s installments. But what’s frustrating is that my efforts to make it better are tossed out the window by writers with whom I have a hard time working.
I don’t appreciate attitude. But I’m going to set that aside; it only gets me even more flustered and annoyed.
Last night I was with my friend Eric and we were able to catch some fraternity initiation thing (or something) on campus, after we finished with the paper. There was a lot of chanting and hollering behind the library, it was well over 100 guys there, wearing shirts and ties. I didn’t really feel like I was intruding on… whatever they were doing; it was fascinating to see some social psychology at work. It was such a group – I don’t know if that makes sense. I can tell there were some solid bonds there, with photos being taken afterwards and lots of hugs and high-fives.
Eric and I concluded that had this not been a fraternity, we would have certainly thought a cult was practicing something cult-like. I think the lack of lighting contributed to this conclusion. And the chanting.
What else?
Oh, Taco Bell is the bane of my existence now. And I love Taco Bell. Yum, indigestion at 3 a.m.!
I really wonder where I’m going now.
Life! Do with me what you will!
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So how vague was my last blog? (Answer: ridiculously! Apologies!)
Today I began my new job as Assistant Opinion Editor at my university newspaper. It’s a pretty exciting venture loaded with much more responsibility and – in time – stress. The passing of Tropical Storm Fay has only made me more anxious about getting stuff done on time. But I’m working with great people and I know we’ll be successful in producing our first paper of the fall semester.
I’ve been admiring the weather, though, if for only its sheer power. I saw this crazy video of guy sailing into a building today, because he was out during the storm… I remember stepping outside a couple of hours ago and just staring out into the pouring rain. It’s still pouring now, but it seemed like I was watching buckets of water coming down against my lawn, my porch, my plants.
Crazy shit. Welcome to Florida.
On another note: I really hope the coming weeks bring on some excitement. I’m dorming for the first time and will check in later this week. I have three roommates whom I’ve never met, so I hope they’ll be awesome and nice. Classes start this Monday and I have to buy textbooks. I have to get in the mode for learning now, because this semester is going to be my most challenging yet. (AAAAHHH 15 CREDITS WHAT THE HELL)
I hope to meet some new and interesting people, get to know them better… but above else, succeed.
Summer is a curse because it leaves me a lot of time to just think, and sometimes, I don’t want to do that. Thinking forces me to face some inner demons and fears I don’t want to even imagine now. But I’ve been doing a lot of, quote, “soul searching” – and I’m unsure of what I’m finding now. I know I’ll be changing within the coming weeks… kinda scary. Scary because the unknown is my greatest fear; I never learned to jump without looking first, never learned to really risk it all, but I know I will. I am. I know I can do this.
I will look into my mirror and say, “You are amazing,” and mean it.
I want to close my eyes and see myself smiling.
I want to be happy.
… God, how exciting.
Hope to see you on the other side.
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Make that a fourth plunge into something. Same as the third – bother me if you really want to know about it. None of you know about this one by now, but it’ll be quite surprising.
And it’ll be weird, but I know it will be okay.
I can do this.
Today was not a great day, but I’m looking forward to tomorrow (well, a few hours from now).
I will be fine.
This is the last week of my summer. It’s time to get down to business.
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Well, today has been filled with plenty of plunges (oh, alliteration, how I love thee) – both in the literal and metaphorical sense. Right now, I’ve skinned my left palm and elbow and my knees ache horribly. Because of Tropical Storm Fay looming, we’ve had to take precautions for our yard – lots of trimming has taken place, which left me to pick up everything and pile the fronds up on either side of our house. I’ve fallen twice in backyard; the first fall was in slow-mo, and I almost saw my life flash before my eyes. My stepfather called it a casualty. Aye. Ow.
I fell again about 25 minutes ago. This time it wasn’t that surreal – just a plop, right to the ground. No shining lights, no memories. Still there’s still an ow. I was more angry than anything else; I hate falling and hurting myself in that godforsaken yard, with all the spiders and lizards and frogs, hidden in dense shrubbery and behind rocks. I will blame my shoes, as my mother has – and no, the laces weren’t untied. In fact, the ones I’m wearing now have no laces.
As for my not-so literal spill, I can’t really go into it here, as much as I would like to do so… Simply bother me about it online if you must, if you care.
It’s a little nerve-wracking yet exciting at the same time. I have plenty to think about in the coming days, so I think I’ll try and focus on not chewing off all of my nails. I must relax… I’m still surprised at the way things have turned, simply because I’ve never had it before, never had that sort of encounter/experience. Ever. Why? I don’t really know, perhaps it’s merely circumstance and odds. But I hope that things work out now, somehow, despite these circumstances.
All I want is to be happy. Right now, I’m contemplative. And achy. And sore.
What else? I e-mailed my roommates today and hopefully they’ll get back to me before check-in next week. I’m pretty excited about it, but I’m worried my living on campus will be put on hold because of the tropical storm. I bought my bedding and other fun things yesterday for my room… now I just need to shop for a new wardrobe, all with the swipe of a card. (Oh, debt. I’m working on it, but I kinda need a job in order to do so. Good thing I got another job!)
Drawings will come later, maybe – my laptop is dead again, for some reason. God damn it, Apple. Ridiculously great timing, really. I might call someone I know in Cupertino about it… hopefully he’s still with the company.
Oh my Lord, today was insane.
Main events:
- Doctor’s appointment. Was 40 minutes late to my appointment, got lucky because someone canceled. Had an ear flushed out, but I still need an OTC cleanser thing. Got a prescription, going back next week for bloodwork. Hopefully I’m not anemic.
- Shopping for dorm. Went to Linens n’ Things and snagged some bedding, pillows, a waste basket and more! The cashier was super nice and gave me 20% off the entire purchase and honored a Bed Bath and Beyond coupon. Oh my God, yay.
- Beacon Boot Camp.
Sir, yes, sir!
Attended a few seminars about the newspaper. Missed the bulk majority of it because of the aforementioned errands. I wish I could’ve gone, but I luckily have some almost-pilfered notes from a friend of mine that I’ll type up for kicks. These sessions were incredibly informative! I’m so excited for the upcoming issue!
Highlight of the Boot Camp? The New York Post myth about an unfortunate headline regarding a piano accident…
THIS HAS TO BE FAKE!
- Dinner at Friday’s with Beaconites. This was fun. Stuffed myself silly with food from Friday’s. Deliciously cheap Friday’s. I had pot stickers, pasta and brownie goodness. And yaaay, strawberry lemonades.
GOOD NEWS: I GOT THE JOB!
I’ll be assistant opinion editor to one Eric, a.k.a. Ercirageous. Visit his awesome blog, it’s totally new!
Time to collapse now.
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In two hours I’m going to see my boyfriend for the first time in nearly two months.
I honestly don’t know what’s going to happen. If you’ve been talking to me recently, you’ll know that there have been a couple of issues arising.
Hah. A couple. Gotta love puns
I really, really hope today goes well.
I’m running out of time.
I would have drawn something, but I’m honestly too nervous/anxious/queasy to get my tablet and do so.
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